it still hurts
I miss you.
I miss you when my little daughter has learned something new.
I miss you when I made a decision.
I miss you when I need someone to talk to.
I miss you when I need an advice.
I miss you when it's 5:30 pm and you're not coming home.
I miss you when I listen to songs by Rosenstolz.
I miss you when I drive that car.
I miss you when I look through photos.
I miss you so much that I can't stand it watching all the old videos.
I miss you so much that I have tears in my eyes when I think of you.
I miss you so very much that I am crying while typing this entry.
I missed you so much yesterday. I never expected to turn thirty without you in my life.
I never expected to be without you for more than 4 years on that day.
I miss your voice.
I miss your jokes, funny or not.
I miss arguing with you.
I miss yelling at you.
I miss you yelling at me.
I miss us watching my daughter sleep.
I miss you and my daughter laugh when you played together.
I miss my daughter saying "Opa" with that big smile on her face.
I miss all of this every day in my life.
I just wished I could turn back time. To be there that night. Be there for you.
Dad, missing you is the most hurting thing in my life.
proud Daddy
I miss you when my little daughter has learned something new.
I miss you when I made a decision.
I miss you when I need someone to talk to.
I miss you when I need an advice.
I miss you when it's 5:30 pm and you're not coming home.
I miss you when I listen to songs by Rosenstolz.
I miss you when I drive that car.
I miss you when I look through photos.
I miss you so much that I can't stand it watching all the old videos.
I miss you so much that I have tears in my eyes when I think of you.
I miss you so very much that I am crying while typing this entry.
I missed you so much yesterday. I never expected to turn thirty without you in my life.
I never expected to be without you for more than 4 years on that day.
I miss your voice.
I miss your jokes, funny or not.
I miss arguing with you.
I miss yelling at you.
I miss you yelling at me.
I miss us watching my daughter sleep.
I miss you and my daughter laugh when you played together.
I miss my daughter saying "Opa" with that big smile on her face.
I miss all of this every day in my life.
I just wished I could turn back time. To be there that night. Be there for you.
Dad, missing you is the most hurting thing in my life.
proud Daddy
it still hurts
I miss you.
I miss you when my little daughter has learned something new.
I miss you when I made a decision.
I miss you when I need someone to talk to.
I miss you when I need an advice.
I miss you when it's 5:30 pm and you're not coming home.
I miss you when I listen to songs by Rosenstolz.
I miss you when I drive that car.
I miss you when I look through photos.
I miss you so much that I can't stand it watching all the old videos.
I miss you so much that I have tears in my eyes when I think of you.
I miss you so very much that I am crying while typing this entry.
I missed you so much yesterday. I never expected to turn thirty without you in my life.
I never expected to be without you for more than 4 years on that day.
I miss your voice.
I miss your jokes, funny or not.
I miss arguing with you.
I miss yelling at you.
I miss you yelling at me.
I miss us watching my daughter sleep.
I miss you and my daughter laugh when you played together.
I miss my daughter saying "Opa" with that big smile on her face.
I miss all of this every day in my life.
I just wished I could turn back time. To be there that night. Be there for you.
Dad, missing you is the most hurting thing in my life.
proud Daddy
I miss you when my little daughter has learned something new.
I miss you when I made a decision.
I miss you when I need someone to talk to.
I miss you when I need an advice.
I miss you when it's 5:30 pm and you're not coming home.
I miss you when I listen to songs by Rosenstolz.
I miss you when I drive that car.
I miss you when I look through photos.
I miss you so much that I can't stand it watching all the old videos.
I miss you so much that I have tears in my eyes when I think of you.
I miss you so very much that I am crying while typing this entry.
I missed you so much yesterday. I never expected to turn thirty without you in my life.
I never expected to be without you for more than 4 years on that day.
I miss your voice.
I miss your jokes, funny or not.
I miss arguing with you.
I miss yelling at you.
I miss you yelling at me.
I miss us watching my daughter sleep.
I miss you and my daughter laugh when you played together.
I miss my daughter saying "Opa" with that big smile on her face.
I miss all of this every day in my life.
I just wished I could turn back time. To be there that night. Be there for you.
Dad, missing you is the most hurting thing in my life.
proud Daddy
it's all about time
Sometimes it's all about time.
Sometimes time is your very best friend. There's enough time for doing things, time to enjoy what you're doing. There's quality time.
And sometimes time is your very best enemy. There's too much time before you can do things again, no time to enjoy what you're doing. There simply is no quality time.
And mostly time is your very best friend and your very best enemy at the very same time.
So how to enjoy what you're doing, how to spend some quality time, when you miss other things doing, miss some other quality time? How to not think about what only time can give you?
Time will show.
Sometimes time is your very best friend. There's enough time for doing things, time to enjoy what you're doing. There's quality time.
And sometimes time is your very best enemy. There's too much time before you can do things again, no time to enjoy what you're doing. There simply is no quality time.
And mostly time is your very best friend and your very best enemy at the very same time.
So how to enjoy what you're doing, how to spend some quality time, when you miss other things doing, miss some other quality time? How to not think about what only time can give you?
Time will show.
it's all about time
Sometimes it's all about time.
Sometimes time is your very best friend. There's enough time for doing things, time to enjoy what you're doing. There's quality time.
And sometimes time is your very best enemy. There's too much time before you can do things again, no time to enjoy what you're doing. There simply is no quality time.
And mostly time is your very best friend and your very best enemy at the very same time.
So how to enjoy what you're doing, how to spend some quality time, when you miss other things doing, miss some other quality time? How to not think about what only time can give you?
Time will show.
Sometimes time is your very best friend. There's enough time for doing things, time to enjoy what you're doing. There's quality time.
And sometimes time is your very best enemy. There's too much time before you can do things again, no time to enjoy what you're doing. There simply is no quality time.
And mostly time is your very best friend and your very best enemy at the very same time.
So how to enjoy what you're doing, how to spend some quality time, when you miss other things doing, miss some other quality time? How to not think about what only time can give you?
Time will show.
back home
One week goes by way too far.
But at least this week was full of everything: Loudness, silence, happiness, sadness, fun, fatigue, beer... ;D
And because you always should repeat great things I'll be back soon.
Just booked the next flights and I really can't wait being with my wife again - and of course with all the other people there :-)
But at least this week was full of everything: Loudness, silence, happiness, sadness, fun, fatigue, beer... ;D
And because you always should repeat great things I'll be back soon.
Just booked the next flights and I really can't wait being with my wife again - and of course with all the other people there :-)
back home
One week goes by way too far.
But at least this week was full of everything: Loudness, silence, happiness, sadness, fun, fatigue, beer... ;D
And because you always should repeat great things I'll be back soon.
Just booked the next flights and I really can't wait being with my wife again - and of course with all the other people there :-)
But at least this week was full of everything: Loudness, silence, happiness, sadness, fun, fatigue, beer... ;D
And because you always should repeat great things I'll be back soon.
Just booked the next flights and I really can't wait being with my wife again - and of course with all the other people there :-)
Vienna calling
Just a short note that I arrived safely at my wife's place :-)
Last time I saw her was more than 1,5 years ago. Time goes by really fast...
Last time I saw her was more than 1,5 years ago. Time goes by really fast...
Vienna calling
Just a short note that I arrived safely at my wife's place :-)
Last time I saw her was more than 1,5 years ago. Time goes by really fast...
Last time I saw her was more than 1,5 years ago. Time goes by really fast...
No.
Damn, I would so love to say just "no".
"No, I have no time."
"No, I can't help you."
"No, I don't want to talk with you now."
"No, it is not okay for me."
"No, no, no."
But instead I say yes, I do what I was asked for. Because my parents raised me being polite, friendly and helpful.
And because I do care.
"No, I have no time."
"No, I can't help you."
"No, I don't want to talk with you now."
"No, it is not okay for me."
"No, no, no."
But instead I say yes, I do what I was asked for. Because my parents raised me being polite, friendly and helpful.
And because I do care.
No.
Damn, I would so love to say just "no".
"No, I have no time."
"No, I can't help you."
"No, I don't want to talk with you now."
"No, it is not okay for me."
"No, no, no."
But instead I say yes, I do what I was asked for. Because my parents raised me being polite, friendly and helpful.
And because I do care.
"No, I have no time."
"No, I can't help you."
"No, I don't want to talk with you now."
"No, it is not okay for me."
"No, no, no."
But instead I say yes, I do what I was asked for. Because my parents raised me being polite, friendly and helpful.
And because I do care.
R.I.P. William
Today we had to let go my daughter's rat William.
He was 1,5 years old.
William, we hope you are fine wherever you are right now. And we do hope that your eye doesn't hurt anymore.
We and your friends, Logan & Don, miss you very much. It's just not the same without you, with only two rats...
The only white one...
just sooo tiny!
bonding with my monster
all his!
yes, it's possible to share it with three!
tame...
best place to overwatch the whole room
yammy!
He was 1,5 years old.
William, we hope you are fine wherever you are right now. And we do hope that your eye doesn't hurt anymore.
We and your friends, Logan & Don, miss you very much. It's just not the same without you, with only two rats...
The only white one...
just sooo tiny!
bonding with my monster
all his!
yes, it's possible to share it with three!
tame...
best place to overwatch the whole room
yammy!
R.I.P. William
Today we had to let go my daughter's rat William.
He was 1,5 years old.
William, we hope you are fine wherever you are right now. And we do hope that your eye doesn't hurt anymore.
We and your friends, Logan & Don, miss you very much. It's just not the same without you, with only two rats...
The only white one...
just sooo tiny!
bonding with my monster
all his!
yes, it's possible to share it with three!
tame...
best place to overwatch the whole room
yammy!
He was 1,5 years old.
William, we hope you are fine wherever you are right now. And we do hope that your eye doesn't hurt anymore.
We and your friends, Logan & Don, miss you very much. It's just not the same without you, with only two rats...
The only white one...
just sooo tiny!
bonding with my monster
all his!
yes, it's possible to share it with three!
tame...
best place to overwatch the whole room
yammy!
4 years now and still...
I can't believe that it has been 4 years by now.
I still see you lying there. I can still hear the sounds of the machines. And I still remember that very moment we had to let you go.
I'll never ever forget that moment. The moment when you left your body. I'll remember this very moment forever.
They say it gets easier with time. They say it'll hurt less after some time.
But they are wrong.
Nothing gets easier. The hurt does not stop. And you never forget. You just try to get along with everything. But to be honest: I'm not very good with that.
I still find myself crying when I think of you.
I still have to hold back my tears when your little sunshine comes to me at night, telling me that you've been in her dreams.
I still try to avoid going to your grave because I can hardly stand the fact that your name is written on that gravestone.
I am still not able to watch a video with you in it.
I still can't forgive myself that I was not there when it happened.
I still hope that you know how much I loved you and still do.
I still miss you like hell, Dad!
I always will.
I still see you lying there. I can still hear the sounds of the machines. And I still remember that very moment we had to let you go.
I'll never ever forget that moment. The moment when you left your body. I'll remember this very moment forever.
They say it gets easier with time. They say it'll hurt less after some time.
But they are wrong.
Nothing gets easier. The hurt does not stop. And you never forget. You just try to get along with everything. But to be honest: I'm not very good with that.
I still find myself crying when I think of you.
I still have to hold back my tears when your little sunshine comes to me at night, telling me that you've been in her dreams.
I still try to avoid going to your grave because I can hardly stand the fact that your name is written on that gravestone.
I am still not able to watch a video with you in it.
I still can't forgive myself that I was not there when it happened.
I still hope that you know how much I loved you and still do.
I still miss you like hell, Dad!
I always will.
4 years now and still...
I can't believe that it has been 4 years by now.
I still see you lying there. I can still hear the sounds of the machines. And I still remember that very moment we had to let you go.
I'll never ever forget that moment. The moment when you left your body. I'll remember this very moment forever.
They say it gets easier with time. They say it'll hurt less after some time.
But they are wrong.
Nothing gets easier. The hurt does not stop. And you never forget. You just try to get along with everything. But to be honest: I'm not very good with that.
I still find myself crying when I think of you.
I still have to hold back my tears when your little sunshine comes to me at night, telling me that you've been in her dreams.
I still try to avoid going to your grave because I can hardly stand the fact that your name is written on that gravestone.
I am still not able to watch a video with you in it.
I still can't forgive myself that I was not there when it happened.
I still hope that you know how much I loved you and still do.
I still miss you like hell, Dad!
I always will.
I still see you lying there. I can still hear the sounds of the machines. And I still remember that very moment we had to let you go.
I'll never ever forget that moment. The moment when you left your body. I'll remember this very moment forever.
They say it gets easier with time. They say it'll hurt less after some time.
But they are wrong.
Nothing gets easier. The hurt does not stop. And you never forget. You just try to get along with everything. But to be honest: I'm not very good with that.
I still find myself crying when I think of you.
I still have to hold back my tears when your little sunshine comes to me at night, telling me that you've been in her dreams.
I still try to avoid going to your grave because I can hardly stand the fact that your name is written on that gravestone.
I am still not able to watch a video with you in it.
I still can't forgive myself that I was not there when it happened.
I still hope that you know how much I loved you and still do.
I still miss you like hell, Dad!
I always will.
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